vision quest

so i am going on a vision quest tomorrow, a ritual of going into nature, fasting and being held in one's quest and intention by healers, ancestors, friends, family, the natural world.

tonight i will sleep in my comfy bed and the next 2 nights i will be sleeping in the wilds surrounded and protected by nature as i quest. i have claire's tent and my journal, a bathing suit and granpy's book, hymn to isis, lots of water ... and a very full heart. i am feeling very grateful.

i realize so much love has come into my life this year, even as it has been a year of change and challenges and letting go ~ and learning to love myself in a way i never knew i needed to. there have been many new people coming into my life as new kinds of family and community from all over the world, and i am so blessed with my own family and my good friends, too. i am grateful also for relationships coming into a new forms, like with jimmy, and the new collaborations with alicia and myokyo and the zen community.... and now this beautiful friend shammi with whom i was in india and greece and am in the berkana community, with whom i feel i share and receive so much love, a boundless, giving love.

i am so grateful for these people, and for this journey.

so i leave to quest, and bring with me prayers and love and gratitude. i feel that questing like this is to clear the way, in my mind and heart, and clear the way to a closer relationship with what is around me and in me ~ and to the divine. my intention is really just that - to clear these paths and be in closer communion, to tune in. i will let you know how i do, how it goes.